I did it!
I wrote in my gratitude journal every day for 31 days straight. I stuck true to my word and began my positivity path on May 1 and maybe had 2 days where I had obstacles, but overcame them by realizing that, while people are hard-wired for being defensive, they are kind. Nature and nurture.
With the obstacles, I decided to recharge my brain and contact people who could assist me or support me. It is absolutely acceptable to ask for help. Without help, you can't do it all on your own. Once you have a connection with someone, be it a former classmate, colleague, family member, or friend, they will be there for you in the best capacity that they can.
I intend to pay it forward to others and have already started one leg of that journey. In the 31 days, I have officially decided yesterday that I am not looking to go into merchandising roles, operations management roles, or project manager roles. I will quietly change my LinkedIn on the weekend. I am a writer. There are plenty of opportunities out there.
While, it may not be the ideal situation, such as being my own entity, I will be happy and not be stifled by the corporate constrictions. My career coach has assisted me in getting my name out there and people are noticing me and everyone is shocked that I can write.
Some secrets when they are released into the world are the best kept. I talked to my mother yesterday and said I was going to start writing and she didn't judge me at all. She said, "my gosh, you always used to write. I have all this stuff when you were a kid still if you want it." Looking back, she probably read the journals that were everywhere laying there freely. No diary under lock and key, but exposed and enticing.
Perhaps, I will get picked up by a company, it would give me more access to resources that I sometimes have trouble finding. I get to work on my books. I am still applying to jobs for writers so who knows where I will end up and if I will be part of a company or my own entity.
I had a business owner ask me who I hired to create my website, I laughed. I said, I did it. The one woman army.
The things I have learned in the past 3 months are things I didn't have time to learn over the past 15 years. I am going to keep learning as much as I can, live life on my terms and be happy, and keep writing.